An old friend came to visit tonight. I had put her off for several days. I ignored her, pretended she wasn't there, looked the other way, did whatever I could to make her go away. So by acknowledging her presence with this post, I will officially be on my way to slamming the door in her face once and for all!
Sounds rude doesn't it? Her name is "Much Afraid" and to know her name, is to know her. I stopped hanging out with her several years ago while undergoing cancer and chemotherapy treatments. I thought our friendship was over, but no, she showed up tonight right at my front door. I let her in a little while ago, but she is fixing to go.
I've had three biopsies in my life. Two of them having resulted in terrifying news. On Thursday of this past week, I finally had my Thyroid biopsied. While having the procedure done, I had a very serious "flashback" to a fairly difficult chemo treatment 20 years ago. I sensed right then that "Much Afraid" may try to visit. She did.
On monday I am suppose to be told if I have cancer of the Thyroid or just nodules that are benign. I covet anyones prayers out there that is a praying person. I've not had a good track record but this time I am truly believing God for good news!
So with all your prayers and God's good help I know all will be well...just one matter of business left at hand...
I am now escorting "Much Afraid" to the front door...*SLAMM*!!! Now that should just about do it! Alrighty then!
Blessings, Peace, All Good,
MeMaw
***The LORD is my light and my salvation; whom shall I fear? the LORD is the strength of my life; of whom shall I be afraid?Psalm 27:1
**You can know more about "Much Afraid" in Hannah Hurnards's book "Hinds Feet On High Places". Myself?...I know her better than I care to...
9 comments:
I am certainly keeping you in my thoughts and prayers. You'll be on my mind, especially monday. I love the music choice, by the way. My mom listens to them constantly. Love you MeMaw!
Yes, definitely will be praying for you. I say "slam to Much Afraid" with you.
God bless,
Brenda
you have mine honey!!!
hugs, bee
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo
You have mine as well, you know that I hope. So, push that visitor out the door, it is going to be okay. Love ya bunches!
Sometimes it is hard not to be afraid. I understand the difference between knowing that God is in control and "will work all things together for the good of those that love Him and are called according to His purposes," and feeling that security. I ask that God would give you peace this weekend and on Monday. That His will would be done in your life and you would have a joy that passes all understanding no matter what the diagnoses is. His will is perfect even though we can't understand it all the time.
Blessings,
Sal
"Fear not I am with thee;be not dismayed for I am thy God; yea, I will help thee; I will strengthen thee; I will uphold thee with my righteous right hand." Isaiah 41:10
I love you, Jen
I love your powerful post. Well put, and we stand at the slammed door, cheering....right along with you! Prayers for you.
I read Hind's Feet on High Places a loooong time ago and it was one of my MIL's favorite books.
I have said a prayer for you already. Let's just kick old Much Afraid to the curb.
In Christ,
Jennifer
I was so glad to read the following post first and know that you were OK.
I so liked the way you wrote this fear episode.
In the end though it is not how we feel but what we believe about how we feel.
Wonder if you got to finish The Shack. Brilliant book I think.
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